Okay. I admit it. I want a relationship. I don’t want it to be about sex,or having to drink,smoke,or do drugs. I want a cute relationship with someone I can trust. Someone who I have known for a while. I want it to count as a relationship. Not the shitty 3 day relationship I had last year. I want to be appreciated by someone I can appreciate. It that too much to ask for??

A year ago we were close. So close we would always be hanging out and anyone who saw us together would confuse us as sisters… A year has gone by and it seems like everything we had was lost. You don’t even seem to care anymore. Did you even care when everything was happening with my mom? Doesn’t seem like it… I’m tired of being the friend who always gets left out. I’m tired of being used and walked all over… For now on I just won’t give a shit anymore.. I realize the only time you talk to me or want to be “friends” is when you want something and that’s not how it works with me anymore..

I’m going to go to Faith’s and play some GTA:Vice City and possibly study for our drivers permit test. Hopefully it really is common sense like everyone says it is.. The only thing that I’m worried about it the 4 hour drug and alcohol test. That’s just effing crazy.. Honestly.

I miss you more and more everyday… When they started up the motorcycle today,me and mom cried because we thought of you. I miss how you used to protect me and miss how happy you made mom. I wish you were here to see me graduate next year and to see me get my license,but all I can do is remember that you are always here with us.. R.I.P Dad. You will be missed.

You are a cinema I could watch you forever.